Strength.

What a rough night.
First off, what the hell just happened? How? What? Huh?
So... I guess that's that...?

Why did you just walk away...

So... I still don't really understand what just happened, or how we got from point A to Z in the matter of seconds, out of no where. I hated that you yelled at me. I hated the patronizing. I hated that you were getting so frustrated with the fact that I just couldn't understand what/where all of this was coming from, and the importance of it all.

I was hurt by you.

When you said that you'd cut me out completely, and without any remorse, my heart broke.
You stunned me. Right there. I was lost in complete oblivion. It was like a bomb just exploded in my head and all that I could feel was the silent chaos and deafening confusion of mass distruction. Shell shocked.
But I'm immune to this distruction. This state of shock is something all too familiar to me now. I just feel like a fool for thinking that your empty promises and certifications of "I'll always be there" were real this time, were true. But I guess you're just like the rest. Surprised that it happened again? No. It was expected. Surprised that it was You? Yes.
What sucks the most is not only did you just pack up your metaphorical shit and leave, but you did it without hesitation. It shouldn't have been so black and white. I shouldn't have been so black and white to you. I am not disposible. I am a human being. And I'm the type of human being that was willing to sacrifice everything that she wanted if it meant that it was what YOU wanted. To give up something important to her, if it meant to give you happiness.
You just made yourself into a hypocrite. You'd go on and on about how you're not the type of person to sacrifice friendships for a relationship. But you just did. So easily too.

I hope she makes you happy. I really do. But I also hope that you don't give anything else up (if I was even a sacrifice to you) for it. Because thats not fair to you. And thats not a healthy relationship if its demanded for it.

As for what's next for me? Well, if this really is what it is, and you're really good with cutting me out, without even a bat of an eye, or a fight, then I have one less transient fluid nonsensical being in my life. You'll join the ranks of the rest, and I'll continue on with the handful of people who would never ever drop me so simply and quickly. They're the people who FIGHT for me. And I only want those people in my heart, and in my life. Just so you know? You had a reserved seat with that handful of people, I saved you a spot. I truly had hope in my heart for your seat.
But if this is truly what it is? You don't deserve it. So, you know what? Best of luck to ya.

Don't you dare ever question the depths of my friendship and caring for you. If you ever do, you'd be slapping me in the face. Because I just did the most ultimate sacrifice for you, and your 'happiness'.

I gave you up.