Femme Fatale: Selfish? What if you're the only thing that you'll always have?

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I know what I want, and I demand it. I am a Woman. You might say I'm a Bitch, but I'll just take that as a compliment. It means that I am assertive, unapologetic, demanding, intelligent, intimidating, in control, fierce, dominating... All positive attributes. I embrace my sexuality, and I'm not afraid. But don't get the wrong impression and think that it means I'll be open to your stereotypical slandering. I am not interested in you. I am not easy, and I won't suck your dick because I want you to like me. Try that with me, and I'll fucking rip it off. I don't need You, or anyone else.
I am Me. And that's all I'll ever need.

Feb 10, 2009

Selfish? What if you're the only thing that you'll always have?

I know what I want.
I have a list.
I've put it everywhere so that I can see it,
but I always seem to lose sight of it somehow...
So I'm posting it on here,
and making a Promise.
A Promise to myself.

I am going to work as hard and as consistently as I can to accomplish every task on that list.
For myself.
There are things I want to feel
and I have some steps to take to make that feeling into a reality.

I want to feel healthy
I want to feel beautiful
I want to feel strong
I want to feel independant
I want to feel successful
I want to feel respected
Fun
Sexy
Womanly
Adult
Happy
Outgoing
Adequate
Fit

... And like I've done all the things that I've always wanted to do
and like I've attained all the things that I've wanted to get.

So now's the time.
I'm starting it.
I'm making it happen.

SCupcake's List of Wonders...

A studio loft
a better wardrobe
Steady income that covers all my needs as well as gives me room for play.
My tattoos all touched up and finished
To learn how to play the guitar
To take dancing lessons
To travel
Nicer things for my bedroom, and soon to be for my place
to start running again
to have more frequent spa days/nights
take better care of my body
1000% quit smoking tobacco
To start singing again
to do some really fun, beautiful photo shoots
To intern at in a fashion district
to work somehow in the music district
Go to Greece, France, Europe (basically) and Montreal with Shauna or Alone in the next 2 years
More girlie high heels
More girlie dresses
Sharper clothes
A headboard for my bed
Candles
Karate lessons again
Kayaking
Lasertag
My license
a Car
Buddy Holly frames
A Sidekick phone
off the shoulder shirts
dangling earrings
REPLACEMENT RINGS FOR THE TWO PRECIOUS ONES I LOST
To be swept away in passion
to be showered with unexpected gifts
to be taken out to nice restaurants
Rollerblading through Stanley Park
Treated to Spa days
Volunteer
Help out at local festivals
Help out at local fundraisers and events
Go to India, China, Egypt, Thailand and Africa in the next 3 years
Spend more time with my Grandmothers
Hang out with my little brothers
Get super awesome at Rock Band so I can Whomp my brothers

I just want to feel like I'm not being taken for granted
like I'm special
like I'm a prize.