Day 24
I think I'm completely not addicted to smoking. I haven't had a single craving. When I walk by people smoking the smell actually kind of grosses me out! I knew I was not addicted, but how easy this is to give up is a good surprise. Swearing is a little harder, because its mostly used for emphasis when it comes out of my mouth. But I'm getting better. I've stayed on track in terms of cleaning and classes and homework and studying. Heck, last night I was up until 5 am doing homework and studying, and I was up 4 hours later (9am) to get ready to head out to lunch with my father, then to a meeting with the Head of University Transfer department and my Econ prof, which went pretty well, except for the fact that my prof was really immature and just used the time to verbally call me names and sit on her high horse and accuse me of crap (long story) like the grades I was getting on homework and quizzes "had to be due to some sort of help" when really I just studied and got crap dealt with. She thinks I'm not smart enough to get the work by myself. She honestly said a bunch of shit (my free pass for the day, I deserve it, especially in this situation) that was definitely trying to provoke a immature response from me. But in the end I told her the situation and that she needed to accept it, because I was doing the best I could do given my situation, and I'm still here, aren't I? That's got to mean something. Woman, you have no idea who or what you're dealing with, you want to make it a challenge for me to kick your course's ass, be my guest, I'll own you.
So that's dealt with, and now starts the motion of getting my academics figured out. This will take a couple of days...
Today's lunch didn't go so well either. My father felt it necessary to remind me of how much of a failure I am to him. I'm either not working enough, and wasting too much time on school, or I'm working too much and not taking into consideration my career/life/education. There's NEVER a situation that is 'good enough' for that man. There are a lot of issues involving him with myself, like the subject of my hearing and hearing aids (yes, I'm hard of hearing, and recently bought myself my first set of hearing aids... I'll elaborate later.) Needless to say I left lunch crying in public, one of the most embarrassing situations for me. I pride myself on being very talented at not letting my emotions show, so the fact that I was crying outside, in public, downtown, was considerably embarrassing and stupid. Whatever though, there are bigger things at hand here.
BUT this needs to be continued later, S just blew in to welcome me and make me feel better... what are best friends for :)
BACK!
Okay so tonight was awesome!
S and I went all around downtown and had a proper night. We went out for dinner, chatted it up, sorted each others' lives out, talked politics and economics, had way too many teas, went to a Hookah bar, befriended the owners and got free hookah, then grabbed some Christmas-in-a-cup from Starbucks (Earl grey tea misto, soy, no foam, 2 pumps vanilla, 2 pumps toffee-nut, 2 pumps Hazelnut. I promise you, this is the essence of Christmas, IN A CUP), looked into some Montreal trip details, and had an all around blast.
Amazing.
I want to be
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